Whew!! What a day - so far...! :D
I can't believe it's only 10:44am. It's amazing how much one can accomplish when they put their mind to it...! And who knew housework could bring a sense of accomplishment that has the power to stir up a sense of joy within one's soul! wow! I like it! :D
I've been up since about 6:45am, and for most part I've been cleaning. Yeah, of course I checked the internet first to see what was happening in the world, making sure they're getting on ok without me. ;) And, I have had to wrestle the connections with the internet for the best part of an hour - before my son came and fiddled with the telephone connection and fixed the issue in less than a minute! :P But for most part I've been cleaning.
What you see here is me taking a break from having straightened and cleaned and vacuumed/hoovered the living/family room - and rearranged the mass of old books I've been collecting lately...
During the course of this morning, I have noted that in giving myself persmission to take a break whenever I want has given me more peace than I normally have in cleaning house. Normally, I point out to myself the lack and wear and tear off it all and begrudge the house the time I must give it, as well as putting rules and regulations on my shoulders and telling myself THIS is how things SHOULD be done - whether such things suit me and my household all not. [Which highlighted that I still listen to voices belonging to another time and soul.] But in choosing to focus on the house today, on making it a priority FOR TODAY, and in telling Tim (and the voices, for that matter) "Honey, I've made this decision, let me do it my way, without giving instruction of any sort," I've found an inner peace - a knowing that I am in control that has released me to come and go as I please, and with that peace I've found the tasks before me a lot easier to conquer.
There's only 24 hours in this day, and much of that will be given to life beyond housework, so I'm running out of time to do it all... but, ya know, I will get done what really needs to be done, and even a few things that probably could've waited until another day - I mean, closed doors tidy a house faster than anything else! ;) But I'll do it without the stress of the past, without the whining I'm capable of, at my own time, and with joy, and that mainly because of the sense of FREEDOM that floods my soul on knowing that I DO have power to recreate myself whenever I want.
I'm actually having fun!! :)
I'm wondering if it's the sense of freedom I seem to have now that delights me the most. I believe that in seeing that I have more power and control in my life than I have believed for a very long time, really does make a huge difference in my outlook, inner peace, and self worth, dignity and confidence.
In doing this 'crazy' thing today, in recreating myself this morning - so it would suit the day in hand and coming events - I've found excitement, joy, confidence, hope for another day, and a sense of well-being...
I am at peace.... and I love it! :D
Ok, enough of my rantings. I have to go... I'll be back soon... For now though, I have more power and control to invest into my own life...in the form of more cleaning - THIS TIME! ;)
Tomorrow...? Oh, yes, Super FUN Christmas Day Wife and Mum! :D I am SO looking forward to that one! :D
Love to all... BBS