Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Who says so...?
For many of us, as a child, when part of your character is spoken about as a negative, you immediately see this "fault" you possess - a fault which everyone can see, obviously! or so you believe - and you start to wonder, and worry, how you're going to change that about yourself. However, I see now that the more you worry about a certain "negative" trait you possess, the more obvious you feel it becomes to everyone else, and the more of your life you give to worrying about it - even way up into adulthood, if you're not careful. The more you think upon it as a negative, the more negative it becomes.
For me, as a child, one of the characteristics I possessed, that was pointed out to be a negative, was that I was "too sensitive." Had I known God then as I do now, I know He could have and would have pointed out that being sensitive is a gift from Him which, when filtered and cultivated through the power and wisdom of the Holy Spirit, can enable the owner of that gift to become aware of the needs and feelings of others, and, with the heart leading, enable them to reach out and offer others support where needed.
However, being led by the 'flesh' and all its insecurities and naiveties, I became paranoid about being "too sensitive" to the point of becoming way too sensitive, which, in turn, disabled me a great deal from being concerned with others, and opened me up to become way too concerned with and for myself.
That which was classed as a fault in me as a child, what was deemed a weakness, has actually become, in the hands of God, one of the greatest strengths I possess. My "sensitivity" enables me to feel Him, to feel His heart, and to feel that of others I come in contact with. It's a gift. At the very least, it was transformed into one, by God Himself.
...What has been spoken over you that was deemed a negative, that has had you look upon that personal trait and consider it a curse? You talk too much? You are too slow? You think too much? You are too childish? You are too this or too that...?! What was spoken over you that hurt so much it altered the way you viewed yourself and grew to become a negative in your life? It may not have been spoken over you as a child, but as a teen or as an adult, and, more than likely, it was spoken by someone you deemed an authority figure, or worthy of great love, respect and/or praise; by someone you looked up to.
Truth is, those who point these traits out to you as negatives are people who are not gifted in the same areas as you, and therefore cannot understand the gift you possess, so they take it and choose to damn it rather than try to understand it. They even grab hold of impatience and arrogance and cast that at you as though those negative feelings they're experiencing are your fault, when, in actual fact, their frustration is born of their own lack of understanding, and their arrogance rises up to make you feel like the idiot so they don't.
How long will you walk in the shadow of their ignorance and arrogance? How long will you live in the shadow of their ego? Haven't you had enough? Aren't you tired of carrying that burden on your shoulders - a burden that they had NO right to throw on you? Then accept it no more. Let them carry it. If they don't understand you, so what? God does... In fact, He can take that which has become a burden for you and transform it into something that will not only reveal the greater beauty that IS in you and IS you, and not only reflect His glory in your life, but enable it to be one of, if not the, greatest traits of your character that will reach out and reflect love, hope, acceptance and freedom to others.
So wear it no more. Shake it off. What they said... let it go. Don't wear someone else's hangup, confusion, bad judgement, or whatever it was, as though it was a robe especially made for you. It's not.
I'm not saying reject the person/people who damned you in some way. Chances are they didn't/don't even realise they're crushing your spirit. Rather, pity them for their lack of understanding, wish them well, but let go of what's been said. A truth sets free; it does not burden you. Not in Christ, anyhow. Another person's ego may very well cloak you with a burden, but Jesus doesn't. He removes that burden and clothes you in beauty and dignity. And, oh, the joy and freedom and peace that comes with it...
Cast off that burden... and be clothed in the glorious robes He has especially for you...
Be who you were created to be... and embrace it with your whole heart. :)